IF I CAN DO THIS, SO CAN YOU.
Three years ago,
I’d found a soulmate and started a relationship I was sure I’d be in for the rest of my life.
6 months in,
All my shadows came out to play.
My insecurities around TRUST were triggered, and amplified.
My need to CONTROL in order to feel safe, was expanded.
My belief that I wasn’t GOOD ENOUGH, that I needed to change, was CEMENTED.
No one liked me, I thought.
I was weird, different (well I am, actually... and I love it... now!).
I didn’t fit in.
I wasn’t born for this.
I was diagnosed with depression.
And prescribed medication.
Instead of taking it,
I took it as a wake up call.
After talking to my partner at the time... I booked a flight to New Zealand, and moved into my Mom’s spare room.
For 8 months.
I spent every day creating the NEW.
I’d been studying both the spirituality of living a better life (mindset, manifesting & matrix..) AND the human psychology of it (conscious & subconscious,...
Look, I'm going to start this by saying that Ubud is a NINE in numerology. Let's just take a second to let that sink in. This entry is part journal, part travel log.
Places or people with the 9 value, have qualities like leadership, clarity, and passion. That all sounds great - until you realise what COMES with those qualities - what needs to be overcome to rise on the other side.
Here's what NUMEROLOGY has to say about the 9's:
"The qualities of the number 9 are those of leadership, the ability to see clearly, integration, the three worlds – physical, intellectual, spirituality, last symbol before return to unity, ability to understand, inborn talents, compulsions, introspection, personal integrity, unity, truth, the Seer, artistry, high moral sense, good advisor.perfection, concord, dissolves ego attachments, challenges faced in looking for your own wisdom."
I want to focus on that casual last line there.
"Challenges faced in looking for your own wisdom"....
They don’t say that bidding goodbye to people you love is hard without VALID REASON.
Saying goodbye to family and friends is one thing – mostly because you KNOW you’ll see them again soon, and they’ll probably be in your life for a really long time (you hope).
So, what about saying goodbye to someone you REALLY love.. As in the ‘thought you would spend the rest of your life with them’ kind of love?
What if, after 3 years, an engagement, and IVF consultation…. He tells you he doesn’t actually want marriage, or more kids… And that no matter how hard he tries, he can’t make himself want what you do? And by staying with you…. He feels selfish beyond belief, knowing he can’t give you the future you thought you were getting?
Oh wait… That’s me.
Many of you know Rodney and I. Whether you’ve met us in person in our incredible African home, or you’ve followed our journey...
D O N O T G I V E U P.
You are not here to be made hard by this world.
You are not here, to grow a shell so thick, that not even the greatest love can penetrate it.
You are not here, to be made cynical, pessimistic and incorrigible by the experiences you’ve had.
It is never too late, to become what you might have been.
I know you are hurting.
I know that you’ve been through more than most people can take the time to understand.
I know that you’ve hard your dreams taken away, your hopes slashed, and your heart broken more than you can probably count.
And I KNOW how hard it is to get back up.
I know how difficult it is to choose love, openness, understanding, empathy, belief and trust after that.
I know. Because I was that person. Battered and bruised by who I had become.
But what if.........
What if, all that was broken and all that has hurt you, was never meant for you?
What if, all that caused you pain and grief, sadness and disappointment all happened, to prepare you for...
I'm BUSTING the TOP 5 MONEY MYTHS, RIGHT NOW.
1. Money is hard to earn.
NO, IT ISN'T. You've just been taught that you need to POUR endless hours and energy into 'getting ahead', that you need to sacrifice SO MUCH of your life to 'earn' any of it, and that you need to fight and fight and fight to be #1.
YOU GUYS..... What kind of a WORLD is that!?!
JUST LIKE ANYTHING ELSE YOU BELIEVE... What you think is true, will become your experience.
BUSTED: Look around you. What OPPOSING evidence can you find, that challenges this negative money belief?! WHO do you know, that has created epic abundance easily and effortlessly, while doing what they love (cough - the coach writing this, cough.. + 423894234298342348923 of your other online mentors/coaches/teachers/buddies!).
2. THERE IS ONLY SO MUCH TO GO AROUND.
Is there, though? Like really? Is there a Money King I am yet to meet, that controls how much everyone gets, and makes more when it is needed, and destroys all that isn't needed?
STOP DOING THINGS YOU HATE, BECAUSE YOU THINK IT WILL MAKE YOU MONEY.
I’ve had conversations with three different clients this week, who have been doing things because it makes them a bit of cash.
They don’t REALLY enjoy it.
It’s not REALLY their purpose.
It’s not REALLY something that lights them up.
Maybe it did, once, but not anymore - now that they’ve grown and evolved.
And guess what.
The Universe HEARS that.
It hears you saying that YOU DO NOT WANT IT ANYMORE, and it hears that in the form of EMOTIONS.
The shift from loving it, to loathing it.
And so.... it gives you exactly what you ask for.
Reasons to not do it anymore.
The lack in clients, the lack in fun, the lack in enjoyment. Maybe the multiplying of clients who pay late, or don’t pay you at all.
Because you don’t want to do it.
And the Universe ALWAYS delivers PERFECTLY, without fail.
So it answers your request.